It reminds me too much of my life and my dreams with you, A. Too much that I could forget them in one day… You was like my Sun system, Cosmos, Universe, the reason why I move in this Earth. You broke me in pieces in the same brutal way as you pick me up just with your fabulous coldness.
I want but I can not forget one trip, one wish, one night, one dream, my dream and my wish. It was perfect to drive with you in black dark night listened music of M83, I was like a soul and wanted to be as light all my life. I was sure, I was myself, but you… I do not have any idea what happened that moment in your head. Did you dream about the starts? Did you count way stripes? Did you think about me???
And now, after maybe more than two years you are still in me as very important memory of this unhappy love story, without any love at all in it just my dreams and wishes absolutely sometimes I think that I just dreamed everything…
My time is crazy now. 40 hours without sleep and then sleep two times a day and now is 3:24 a.m. and I am still alive.
A head is fulled of difficult thoughts, dreams, opinions and others talking. Yes, I still listen what others say, I know, I should not do this but I hope they want me just good things.
And I know that he will sing to me when is looking in my eyes, talking about lovely, important and world news things, joking with me, let me be more confidence and do everyday the sport… I try but I am sure, with him, it will be easier because it would be very nice to see how he takes the control and say to me one two three… more abs… and so on or dear, you can, I know you can, please more one. After this together cooking something and then go to works. We work at different places, sometimes lands but it does not matter. I always know that my man could make the best decisions on his own and if he need to travel it is okay, sad but ok. I respect what he does as he respects my work, we both are talented but in different kinds and it is amazing. I love what he does and how he interested in my mother tongue language, He is so fast learning. He is my best friend, of course, I have some girl-friends but he is the best.
Time to dream at the world of the dreams…
sweet dreams, good night.
I always with ya.
Love my man
The sea gates are open, come in my life